Exploding Eyeballs Disease...ppppsshhhhh!

i have some exciting news for you.

are you ready?

this may be more exciting to me and my family but whatever I am sharing it anyway.

as of right now my eyes are no longer going to explode. i am not clear of anything yet however, i am doing really good. i went to the eye ball doctor today and she said that my discs look defined...for those of you who don't know the psuedo tumor cerebri lingo that means that my optic nerves are looking healthy, so are my blood vessels. she said that my headaches will liner, less intense and less frequent and that is already proving true. she wants me to keep up the diamox regimen and take my darvocet as needed...i will have to confirm that her plan is ok with my neurologist before i make any changes but for now the good news is that to the naked eye all is good.

turns out that my nuerologist was right, get rid of 50 pounds and things may get a little easier. whatever man, i guess i deserve and i told you so.

also, i quit old navy yesterday. 2 1/2 years and done.

Go ahead, ask me how I am!

I am good, super in fact. I am happy and content and full. Let me tell you why:

jesus.

sacramento.

kate.

courtney.

sally.

carol.

kevin.

joshua.

silver darling.

my blue like jazz pod.

thoughts of my dad.

calls from my mom.

texts from my brother.

spring.

naps on the grass.

and so many more things...

this weekend was soooo good. the boys played what has been called thier best show ever in our home. we baked so many treats for the show goers, served coffee and water and opend our home up to at least one hundred sacramento music lovers. aaron ross and his amazing voice and lyrics came over for dinner, i cooked aaron ross dinner...are you kidding me I am on top of the world! also, he liked it. he played warlock and dedicated it to the 'sweet little girls who live in this house'.

when i was in long beach i was good, i had my family and my friends and people who knew me since I was in diapers and that was awesome however i dont know that i was ever filled to the brim as i am here.

sometimes i am so full of contentment and happiness that the only appropriate response to it are tears and explosions of the heart. i am so grateful for the boys, i am not sure what i did to deserve such a place in thier lives but whatever it is i will do it for the rest of my life if it means that these moments will fill it.

i like what i have here, i love what we are building together and i hope that we can keep it up until forever on a farm shaped like a pie...i will bring the books ;)

Today

I got up at 745, I curled my hair, I put on my face...ran into a friend on the way to pick up friends for a coffee date...drank coffee with 2 of the greatest boys on the planet and my BFF, met a bloodhound named George, worked, ate onion rings, drank my 3rd americano of the day by noon, sent some text messages, recieved some text messages, listened to a cd that a nice boy made me, bought new pens, read some blogs, worked some more, went for a walk....and now I am here.


Done and done. One small step toward being better at sharing my life.


xo.

It has been sooooo many days

I promise that I am still alive...just busy with work things. Keep checking back! I have news, just no time to share.




xo. ♥

Long Beach

A reunion in the LBC.

At home in the LBC

I got home about an hour ago and this place is bumming me out man. Earlier today my mom had to put Kahlua down because her heart condition was becoming more of a problem. My Dad is severly bummed and that makes me super sad, just knowing that my Dad cried makes me want to curl up and do the same. Losing pets is awful, geez....I am bummed. I can't write about anything even though I have so much to share, soon buddies, very soon!


The good news is that I know things will begin to look up also, hanging out with JM will be the glory of my trip.

What a spectacular night!

The above is my description of last evening. I went to bed Sunday night with the grand idea of driving to Oakland to get a new tattoo but that idea was quickly pushed to the side upon reciveing a wake up phone call from Kevin...he asked me to fo with im to purchase a ring for Carol. Of course, I jumped out of bed and prepared myself for the excursion of a life time. We drove out to Roseville, picked up Court and went to Shane Co. to pick out a ring. Done and done. Kevin's plan was to ask Friday but the ring was burning a hole in his pocket so he asked last night in front of all of us!



It was the most beautifully pure and ecstatic display of love that I have ever witnessed and for that I am thrilled and forever grateful! KEVIN AND CAROL ARE GETTING MARRIED! My face is stuck in the position of a smile...forever and ever.



♥