The Good, The Bad and The Ugly...

The Good:

Today I woke up without a headache and the combonation of zyrtec and darvocet made today a pressure free day.

I had a productive day at the office, I think it is pretty neat that I have an office.

I had dinner with the roomates, it was lovely. I was saddened to think that Sally is leaving us soon (oops I guess that goes in another category).

I love my book.

I bought a CD on a whim and it is good: Raphael Saaquid.

I ran into Phil and Joshua whilest out and about, I love working where I live.

I rode Carol's bike for my mode of transport all day. It was amazing.

The Bad:

Allergies.

Chapped lips and nose.

Farts.

Opossums living in my back yard which terrify me when I take out the trash.

Clumpy 1/2 & 1/2 (I wanted just a drop in my tea).

Cars that don't share the road.

Allergies.

Politics.

The Economy.

Long distance family.

Long Beach being 400 miles away.

The Ugly:

Flaky nose skin (from the chapped nose).

Swollen eye lids (from the allergies).

Road Kill.

A messy office.

Farts.

The End.

So good!

I was feeling a little bummed this eve then Joshua played the song and it helped. I think Bonnie Prince Billy can heal.

Have you bought the album yet?

UGH!

This is what I feel today.

Does grey mean I am old?

I guess I am not really opposed to being old. i am not even really opposed to being grey. The truth is that my dream is to have Emmylou Harris grey hair when I am up there.


I am not sure why my heart jumps when I walk into the bathroom to put on my face and instead of day old mascara on my face I find a patch o grey. A EFFING PATCH. They are taking over.


I'm not old.


25 is young.


Stress?

2 surprises and something LAME.

I decided a few weeks ago that I should stop carrying massive tote bags as purses. You see, I like to have so many things with me on my daily travels a book, journal, calendar, mini make up bag, lotion, wallet, iPod, etc...things I love but do not need when at a show or running to the market. SO, I switched it up. Forked out $18.99 for a lil purse big enough to hold a wallet, mini journal and lip gloss. I still stuff it tight so when I need that piece of paper that I wrote a friends number on a week ago I need to empty out the entire lil satchel....TODAY at the bottom of my purse I found 2 buttons. Owl buttons. I like owls. In fact I love them. How can I not? I mean, they swivel their crazy heads all the way around, they have massive wing spans, they eat things whole, they like hanging out all night and they are real pretty. Whatever. The buttons made my life, in the midst of a day of painting they were little jewels at the bottom of my crap. I am still trying to figure out who put them there. HELP!


The lame thing is this:
I am writing on my porch right now. Mosquitoes are eating me. Isn't mosquito season over? These effers are massive, fat, massive hungry jerks.


xo.

I am going to FREAK THE CRAP OUT!

Today: 60 degrees...I wore a cardigan and scarf all day. My cheeks were ever so chilly as I left the house for church this morning. I was happy and excited. It was good.




THEN...



The effing news tells me this:
Monday: 81
Tuesday: 83
Wednesday: 83


I can't go on....


...fetal position weeping is in my future.

Have you ever...

Have you ever had a moment that was so good you wanted to share it with the world? I have, I did. Today.


The gloom that we call Fall is here and I have been in a pretty amazing mood because of it. I was sitting outside at Temple the other day as little droplets began to fall from the sky...that moment was perfect. The wind was blowing my hair into my face and the sky was grey, my americano was the perfect temperature so I sat back for a second and allowed the water to hit my face. In the moment I remembered that life is good.


Today I walked to the corner market to get some half anf half for Joshua's coffee. You see, today we decided was the perfect day to welcome back Saturday morning winter breakfast...this too was so good. As I walked back from the market a breeze reminded me that the season for bundling is just around the corner. I watched a man throw a ball for his dog to fetch, a group of folks wearing tye dye shirts were marching for some cause that holds a place in their heart and I was happy. I was walking back to a house that would be warm in temperature and ambiance, it would be full of people who have taught me that it will be ok and coffee would be ready to warm my insides. All in all my home as been warm today.


I miss Southern California but I do not miss it's indefinable seasons. I miss the people who love me even though I am crazy and idealistic and indecisive. I miss it's warmth.


Also, this video changed my life: