Meet the Pod...

...minus Elizabeth, she was behind the lens.

My fingers are red and they smell like horse poop

Alluring right? The hemp twine that is wrapped around the boys cd smells of maure and the scarlett dye used to make it so beautiful only amplifies the smell so when I scratch my nose because I live in Sacramento where allergies are a real b word I also gag...how long will this last?

An Update or Whatever

So Marc was ok to preach. I was pretty glad that I didn't have to run around like a mad woman organizing a last minute worship service but mildly bummed that I had stayed up until 2am preparing everything just in case.




In other news...


The pod that I have been leading for 19 weeks now is over next week and that is kind of exciting. We have spent what will be the last 20 weeks reading through Blue Like Jazz, a book that has stretched me and taught me quite a bit about myself and my relationship with Christ. Our small group (5: Elizabeth, Tim, Jason, Lori and I) started out as strangers and now we are friends, concerned with what happens to one another, eager to hang out and excited to have a common thread on Sunday mornings. We will likely take a break for a couple weeks before we get started on the new book (Henri Nouwen's Reaching Out)...I am excited for what lies ahead.


I just finished reading The Irresistible Revolution by Shane Claiborne for what I think must be the fifth time and once again I am all twisted up. The book is so good. It has me thinking quite a bit about what my role in the Body is. Why is it that God has me in Sacramento? I am so full of ideas and questions and excitement about what could be but at the same time I am frustrated that City Life Church isn't really at a place that allows me to minister in the ways that I am most passionate about. Then again I am no longer in North Long Beach so the issues are very different and maybe if I searched and prayed long enough I would be lead to another passion...Midtown/Downtown is not void of its issues.
I have found myself being quite frustrated with the body at large lately. Much like the frustrations that I had when I left New City. I am at a place where I am annoyed with the people who leave the community to worship, move to a more comfortable place to live, ignore the injustice on the street. Yet at the same time I am convicted of my laziness and my passivity, I haven't been completely active in making a difference. I have my friends that I pass on the street everyday Reggie who needs a meal once in a while or Rebecca who I hang out with at the gym and the coffee shop but that seems like so little. In moving to Sacramento I think that I lost my spunk for speaking out against the laziness of the church; I have become far to passive. I am annoyed with myself and with the churches desire to help only when it is comfortable....sounds like I am back to where I was a few years ago. I think that it is a good place to be, it is a place that causes me to think and draw nearer to the heart of God but it is also a lonely place as I feel quite misunderstood.


Today I long for what will be...


xo.

It's 11 p.m.

And I am working. WORKING! Also, it is Saturday.

You see, when you are a pastor's assistant and the pastor falls ill the night before Sunday morning worship you are stuck making a whole new power point presentation. The great news is that all of this work might not be necessary because he could (if my sanity of worth anything) feel just fine in the morning.

I would much rather be reading a book on my porch, whilest drinking a cup of coffee and listening to Otis Redding.

I'm not bitter, just a lil bummed.

Guilt

I am feeling quite guilty for neglecting this space. It is not that I don't have anything to share, there are plenty of little things that make me happy every day. I suppose it is just that I have lost a bit of creative energy...not that I had any to begin with. So, I will turn my life into a bullet pointed list:


I visited the VerWys family blog tonight to find some lovely photos of thier beautiful boys AND a playlist...I stole that idea and made my own, hopefully you are listening to it right now.


Tonight I had my first visit to a wine bar. You see, I have decided recently that I should branch out into the wide wide world of alcohol. I like wine very much I am just terrible at knowing what to buy and how to drink it so this trip was very helpful.


The boys are recording thier album so soon and I am so excited for them. Friends, the new songs are so wonderful!!! I can't wait for you to hear them. (In the meantime you should probably buy thier EP off of iTunes or CD Baby! It is guaranteed to melt your heart and if it doesnt I will eat a chocolate bar.)


I hate blue (or is it bleu) cheese. Tonight I ate blue cheese and it wasn't so bad...WHAT?!


The video of the 3 year old explaining start wars (on you tube) makes my life. Charlie but my finger is the cherry on top!


I miss my Dad.

What the?!

I have nothing even remotely interesting to share with anyone.

My days are spent drinking coffee, journaling about things that I am still trying to figure out after the Urban Youth Workers conference, reading, and researching Obama and McCain...you'd think there would be something.

I guess there are things, just nothing that I am too eager to share just yet....

xo.