Sleepy...

I love pushing daisies. I watch it every week and I know that at the very same time my Dad is watching it so that, for whatever weird reason, makes me happy. Today, I got an email from him only minutes before the start. It made my otherwise lame day pretty good.


I know who I am voting for. I am excited. Voting makes me happy, I get excited when I get to do it. I tend to stress out until the day of the election because generally I am still reading up on stuff and I can't make a decision. This year I'm ready, well kind of. I love Barack Obama.


The youtube don't vote video made me laugh.


I am going to Half Moon Bay for Sally's bachelorette weekend...it is supposed to pour in Half Moon Bay...I am bummed.


Our new room mate will be moving in on the 10th, the 10th!


I am severely homesick.


I love honey crisp apples. The Trader Joe's has a 1.5lb bag for so few dollars.


I love Temple. Come hang out with me in Sacramento and I will take you there, probably more than once.


I love Ned and Chuck.


3 ply toilet paper is amazing. Thank you Charmin.


There is a tiny part of me that wants to do what is good for my body and cut back on coffee but the majority is winning, I go through about 1.5 lbs of coffee a week.


Tis the effing season.


Our church was reviewed in the local News & Review...it bummed me out.


Pumpkin beer makes me want to vomit.


Lagunitas IPA Maximus is amazing.


Talking to Kate on the phone, if even for a moment, reminds me that everything is ok.


Webcams are good.


I love buffalo sauce.


And salt & vinegar chips.


I have found another nest of grey hairs on my head. One step closer to Emmylou Harris hair. I have come to terms with premature aging and I am sort of into it.


I will be in Long Beach from Nov. 23rd - Dec. 2nd. Wanna hang out? email me, facebook me, myspace me, call me, write me...whatevs. I want to hang out with you.

Skype?

So I just unpacked the web cam my mom gave me when I moved to Sacramento, downloaded Skype and I'm ready to chat: shan.littlemicrophones

Kay?!

Have you watched this yet?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dPsNi1k8Df4

Let it load and forward to 2:16, it is so good. HILARIOUS!

At the Staff Meeting...only moments ago...

I learned that Eric is unable to be productive for more than ten minutes without food or coffee.


Marc thought a solution to the no fridge in the office problem would be to fill the microwave with ice instead.


My fortune from Plum Blossom: The Chinese ancient civilization attracts you.
That is not a fortune...what happened to fortunes?


Marc ended the meeting with the 'whats up dog' joke.


I still have no peach rings.

For the love...

Have you bought the Bonnie Prince Billy CD yet?



Also, I love Fall.

Nostaligia

I was looking for the power cord to my electric stapler, yes I have an effing electric stapler. Well, it belongs to City Life and I am moving into the office. Anyhow, stapler. I opened box after box of crap and found nothing...I will prolly have to buy another power cord because I am a tard and put it somewhere 'safe'.

Instead I found...

Old pictures that made me smile: Memo and I, Memo and Mom, Tia Marta making tortillas that made me weep, NCC Youth circa '99?, House Church circa when it was only 4 or 5 of us...way back, Hutch, Mom and Askher....nostalgia is awesome.

Notes that made me laugh: From people that I never ever see anymore but wish I did.

Poems: That I tried to write or loved to read.

It was a good hunt.

The Good, The Bad and The Ugly...

The Good:

Today I woke up without a headache and the combonation of zyrtec and darvocet made today a pressure free day.

I had a productive day at the office, I think it is pretty neat that I have an office.

I had dinner with the roomates, it was lovely. I was saddened to think that Sally is leaving us soon (oops I guess that goes in another category).

I love my book.

I bought a CD on a whim and it is good: Raphael Saaquid.

I ran into Phil and Joshua whilest out and about, I love working where I live.

I rode Carol's bike for my mode of transport all day. It was amazing.

The Bad:

Allergies.

Chapped lips and nose.

Farts.

Opossums living in my back yard which terrify me when I take out the trash.

Clumpy 1/2 & 1/2 (I wanted just a drop in my tea).

Cars that don't share the road.

Allergies.

Politics.

The Economy.

Long distance family.

Long Beach being 400 miles away.

The Ugly:

Flaky nose skin (from the chapped nose).

Swollen eye lids (from the allergies).

Road Kill.

A messy office.

Farts.

The End.

So good!

I was feeling a little bummed this eve then Joshua played the song and it helped. I think Bonnie Prince Billy can heal.

Have you bought the album yet?

UGH!

This is what I feel today.

Does grey mean I am old?

I guess I am not really opposed to being old. i am not even really opposed to being grey. The truth is that my dream is to have Emmylou Harris grey hair when I am up there.


I am not sure why my heart jumps when I walk into the bathroom to put on my face and instead of day old mascara on my face I find a patch o grey. A EFFING PATCH. They are taking over.


I'm not old.


25 is young.


Stress?

2 surprises and something LAME.

I decided a few weeks ago that I should stop carrying massive tote bags as purses. You see, I like to have so many things with me on my daily travels a book, journal, calendar, mini make up bag, lotion, wallet, iPod, etc...things I love but do not need when at a show or running to the market. SO, I switched it up. Forked out $18.99 for a lil purse big enough to hold a wallet, mini journal and lip gloss. I still stuff it tight so when I need that piece of paper that I wrote a friends number on a week ago I need to empty out the entire lil satchel....TODAY at the bottom of my purse I found 2 buttons. Owl buttons. I like owls. In fact I love them. How can I not? I mean, they swivel their crazy heads all the way around, they have massive wing spans, they eat things whole, they like hanging out all night and they are real pretty. Whatever. The buttons made my life, in the midst of a day of painting they were little jewels at the bottom of my crap. I am still trying to figure out who put them there. HELP!


The lame thing is this:
I am writing on my porch right now. Mosquitoes are eating me. Isn't mosquito season over? These effers are massive, fat, massive hungry jerks.


xo.

I am going to FREAK THE CRAP OUT!

Today: 60 degrees...I wore a cardigan and scarf all day. My cheeks were ever so chilly as I left the house for church this morning. I was happy and excited. It was good.




THEN...



The effing news tells me this:
Monday: 81
Tuesday: 83
Wednesday: 83


I can't go on....


...fetal position weeping is in my future.

Have you ever...

Have you ever had a moment that was so good you wanted to share it with the world? I have, I did. Today.


The gloom that we call Fall is here and I have been in a pretty amazing mood because of it. I was sitting outside at Temple the other day as little droplets began to fall from the sky...that moment was perfect. The wind was blowing my hair into my face and the sky was grey, my americano was the perfect temperature so I sat back for a second and allowed the water to hit my face. In the moment I remembered that life is good.


Today I walked to the corner market to get some half anf half for Joshua's coffee. You see, today we decided was the perfect day to welcome back Saturday morning winter breakfast...this too was so good. As I walked back from the market a breeze reminded me that the season for bundling is just around the corner. I watched a man throw a ball for his dog to fetch, a group of folks wearing tye dye shirts were marching for some cause that holds a place in their heart and I was happy. I was walking back to a house that would be warm in temperature and ambiance, it would be full of people who have taught me that it will be ok and coffee would be ready to warm my insides. All in all my home as been warm today.


I miss Southern California but I do not miss it's indefinable seasons. I miss the people who love me even though I am crazy and idealistic and indecisive. I miss it's warmth.


Also, this video changed my life:

sad, so so sad

I just got home from the boys show in Davis....my house is empty. My roomates have abandoned me 1 for New York and the other for Cabo.




So here I sit, alone with my glass of water and popsicle.




I hate being alone.



In brighter news: The office should be done tomorrow! I worked at Temple for 4 hours today, I will miss hanging out there everyday! That place is amazing.

I'll Be Glad

This isn't my favorite song off of the album however, it is in the top 3.

Bonnie 'Prince' Billy
Lie Down in the Light

BUY IT BUY IT BUY IT!

A Few Questions...

1. Why did Jim & Pam get engaged? This bums me out. I committed to 4 weeks without casting final judgement but I will have you know that I am sad. In other news: I love Andy Bernard and I am glad that Dwight is back to AWESOME.
2. If I move to Baltimore will Geof from Ace of Cakes marry me? I love him.
3. Why is The Shack such a bummer? I am on chapter 15 now and I kind of want to freak out. I mean all the hype screwed me up. I was expecting it to be awesome. It is taking me soooo long to finish it.
4. Why would anyone want to quit drinking coffee? I feel that that decision is lame.
5. Why is Bonnie 'Prince' Billy so awesome and how might I trap him in my home to sing me songs all the live long day? I went to his show in Big Sur this last weekend and it was life changing. BUY HIS NEW ALBUM NOW! Listen to #4 (?, the mole song) and tell me what you think. It changed my life.
6. Have you read Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close yet? I am reading it again (I think this is going on 12ish times) and it is realy phenomenal. READ IT IMMEDIATELY!


That is all for now.

WELCOME FALL...I have been waiting for you!!

Fall is here! Last night my knees pained me, I was uncomfortable and achy and annoyed until I realized what that pained meant...FALL! Cold, cozy, rainy, lets-drink-hot-drinks Fall is here. My knees are super at letting me know when the seasons are changing to cold.


I just got back from a really great show in Davis. The boys played on campus and it was super. Sounded good, felt good! They are doing so well and my heart is warmed at the thought of their sucess.


Things have been really busy lately. When I get home from a day of work I just want to curl up in bed and sleep for so many hours. We recently rented an office and I took on the job of making it into a worakble environment. This means painting and shopping and setting up and in the end-10 hour days. It also means that I neglect my friends and family, I havent talked to my Dad since I was home 3 weeks ago and that makes me sad.


Of all the people in Long Beach it is my dad that I miss the most. The truth is that I talk to everyone else, I stay in the loop but with my Dad its a little different. Our greatest and most valuable moments happen in eachothers presence over a meal or in the yard during the race or just in silence and the world happens around us. I used to think that long moments of silence are weird but as I have grown older I realize that there is something special between people when periods of silence are a blessing. I was recently asked about my family by a newcomer in town...that is such a great topic for me. When asked by a stranger what my family is like I am reminded of what great people they are, I mean you never tell a stranger about the things that annoy you. Instead all the great things come out and this is what I had to say:


The truth that my Dad is the most honorable man that I know. He is selfless and quiet but strong. My Dad is an amazing person and I think of that just about everyday and I am in awe. He is much like his father and his father was an incredible man.
My mom is the most generous person in my life, it is from her that I learned the joy of giving.
My brother is a jerk...just kidding. Truly JM is my favorite, he is young (not that I am at all old or wise) and he is a boy so he does stupid stuff, he makes stupid choices and those things make me crazy but he is amazing. He loves me even if I am lame. He is my guardian. I feel safe and loved and okay knowing that he is just a phone call away.
My uncle Dave is the kindest person that I know. He carries with him a peace that I love, he is the shirt off of his back kind of man. My Poppy left with Dave the spirit of kindness and gentleness.


I talk about my Memo often, about how she changed my life. How if I am just a tiny speck of who she was I think I am ok. If I endeavor to be like any one person, it is she. She is my hero and I am lucky to have known my hero so well.


Family is important to me and I am sad to be so far away from them. I miss them terribly but my life here is good. These people take care of me. Things are good right now...


but I am eager to be home for the holidays!